Tuning into the love of music

As a child I loved the violin
I wanted to play all the time. I loved the way it sounded. I loved the physical act of playing it. Then I hit my teenage years and everything changed. Suddenly “violin” became a competitive sport. I was measured against other violin players. It didn’t feel to me that the other students felt this same love for the instrument. It was a way for them to show off how fast and how dramatically they could play.

I was heart broken
It felt like I lost a critical part of myself. I don’t think I was unique making conclusions like this as a teenager. As an adult I understand that the people around me changed but I didn’t have to change with them. It would be important for me to ask whether I wanted to continue to participate in this highly competitive system or forge my own destiny in music.

A full circle moment
Once again I’m feeling disillusioned with the environment in which I find myself doing most of my performing. Even though I talked about not bringing my violin to college, thankfully, my mother insisted that it go with me. During freshman year, a loving music history professor took it upon himself to gather students to read quartets on Sundays. He opened my eyes and ears to quartets by Beethoven, Mozart, Schubert, and Haydn. Because he was so in love with the music himself, I began to fall in love again.

In love again
Today I’m looking for opportunities to play quartets with a recently retired musician and with a young organist for church services. I’m going back to my roots as a lover of violin music.

Violinist Linda Beers is the creator of the Inspiration for Violinists, a 50 card deck. Each card has a unique image and text inspiring musicianship, mindfulness and spirituality.

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